Today I punished myself.  I ran 50% of my long run in agony.  My ITB flared up again.  I'm really trying to keep my head up, but I have spent most of the day being pissed off.  I feel like most of my runs over the last few weeks have sucked hardcore.  I had a couple GREAT runs and a ton of CRAP runs.  People keep telling me "it's part of the journey".  Well, I still suck at running.  I'm not getting any faster.  I've lost that spark I had a few weeks ago.  I've lost my motivation.  I don't know how to get it back.  I feel like such a wus.